Pleasantly Reminded

Yo, I'm slackin...

I missed another three days of writing, but trust and believe it helps to build a better story!  I had a marvelous three-day weekend.  I will spare the details, but just know I had a blast and had the opportunity to experience some things I haven't before and some things that I haven't done is far too long.

I did just say I would spare details, but to set the stage for this post, I will say my sorority sisters and I were on the campus of Oregon State University for the Divine Nine Step Show.  What an experience!  I haven't been to a step show in ages and being Greek now does afford some perks that I rather much enjoyed.

After the show and a little pre-funk session, we went to the after party.  We danced a while, strolled a lot, fights broke out at the end and we left...we're too pretty for all that!  I went back to my hotel room with my girls and ended spending time with some of the bruhs from our 'brother organization'.  I met a real cool guy and he and I hung out oh, like forever.  I didn't get back in until 6:00 AM!  C-R-A-Z-Y!

The rest of the weekend was a blur in that I was so tired, I didn't do much Sunday, nor Monday.  In and out of sleep, I didn't spend time thinking about the great experience I had and how every weekend of my life used to be like that when I was actually in college.  Gone are the days, but the memories linger....

Because of the great time I had, I began thinking how things would have played out after college if I didn't have my son; if I stayed on the East Coast; if this, if that, if that, if this.  Would I have these carefree weekends more often?  Would I be single, sexy and free like Mya? Would I this, would I that?  Blah, blah, blah!  I finally had to tell my mind 'ENOUGH!'  I did have my son.  I moved from the East Coast.  My weekends are what they are--filled with Space Jam, Cars and The Incredibles. 

The decisions I made and didn't make have formed me into the person I am now. And although I have moments of weakness when I think what I used to have was better than I have now, I have to snap back to reality and confess the live I have now is freakin' awesome!  I mentioned this previously, but I have my own car, apartment, good job and a child who adores me.  He is my motivation to do well and I must be grateful for that.

While others may be content with their lives---seemingly carefree and full of parties every weekend, I have to remember, I lived that life and if it were so bomb, I would have decided to do what I needed to do the protect that lifestyle.  Since I didn't, that leads me to believe subconsciously, I knew there was something better for me available.

Yes, partying is fun and if that's where you still are, please have fun for me, but I can't live that life again every day. It wasn't fulfilling.  But ask me about things now....I am satisfied.  Granted, I have much to accomplish, but looking at my life now, I have things I can put my hand to and say I am proud to have the responsibility.

So, I leave you all with the revelation I had: though traveling back is fun for a moment, take the time to remember why you left and continue working toward the life you truly desire. 

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