Own It

Hey.

So, I'm at work.  I forgot my lunch today, but had a few dollars and grabbed something from downstairs.  I am grubbin' on these fries right now.   If I hadn't forgotten my lunch, I probably wasn't going to have fries for a week, but since the opportunity presented itself...I'm all over it!

Now, most people who know me well, know that I feel like I look like a moose often times.  A moose, really?  Yes! Just big and awkward.  I know that's extreme and I have been spending more time in the mirror to work on loving what I see.  Guys I've dated say the nicest things about my body and some days, my outfits are killin' the game, so I get compliments, but I'm working to compliment myself every day.

I used to have time to work out and was really into loving myself then becasue I was seeing results, but now, my schedule doesn't permit, so I don't.  I used to have a serious complex about what I ate because I didn't want to lose the toned look I was acquiring and felt like I was going to do if I made the decision to eat fast food.

I am so over that!

Here's the deal.  I have decided if I am not happy, I need to change to make myself happy.  That includes people needing to leave my life, jobs that need a-changin' and my body image.  I look the way I do because I created this look--through exercise and lack thereof and my PERCEPTION.

A really good friend and her family taught me that perception is so very important and I am starting to get it now.  If I want to eat fries...I will eat fries.  They will be hot and tasty and I will enjoy them with ketchup!  Why?  Because I can, homie!

And I will own the look that goes with eating fries.  If I don't like the look, I will do what is necessary to change and stop complaining and acting like an idiot like I wasn't there when I made the decisions to get me in the position I am in.

This really goes beyond fries and fat to life and living...I am prepared now more than ever to make the decisions that make me happy.  So, eff you for looking at me crazy while I eat this, but it's satisfying my soul and I don't care about you in this moment.  My joy is not contingent upon your approval of my decisions!

So, to those who catch this I say, do what you do and enjoy it.  Don't complain about what you don't like unless you plan to get your tail in gear and change something! 

I don't plan to eat fries every day, but I do plan to stop crucifying myself for the decisions I make because I was in charge on my actions in the first place. 

Do what you do and love it, is all I'm saying. I am taking my own advise.  Effective immediately.

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