Playing the Field

Hey Michelle!

Sorry, had to shout out my life twin.  Apparently, according to my mother, her co-worker and I lead similar lives.  If that be true, girl, I am so sorry!  We go through the most!  LOL. Jk.  I really love who I am and all I am experiencing.  I feel like I can handle all that's going on...a lesser woman would have fainted long ago. Hell, me a year ago would have killed myself.  Not really, but at least jumped on a table...I told you all before, I love life too much to leave the Earth prematurely, but am dramatic enough to declare I will end it by jumping off a curb.  If I say table, that's a pretty bad situation!

Anywho...

I haven't be writing lately because my job search is getting more aggressive during my lunch breaks.  And since the internet does not make the Top 20 List of things most important in my budget I don’t write when I am not at work!  One day, one day....Until then, you get to me when I get time. J

This job search has proved quite interesting. I still have a job, so I am not stressing but rather, send a resume here, check a posting every now and then there...so relaxing....More recently, I have run into a few postings that I am quite interested in. I applied and went on interviews...two points for me, yes! Turned out, I couldn't get out of the first interview fast enough--it was just not the opportunity for me.

From there, I didn't stress about finding another opportunity because 1. I still have a job to call my own for the next couple of months and 2. As I was declining a third interview with that place, I was replying to an email about setting up an interview for another place...talk about playing the field!

It was in that moment that I realized I can be choosy and wait for the right opportunity.  I don't have to say yes to the first opportunity that comes up because they think I am a good fit for their company.  I have to think with a clear head and think about whether or not I want to link with one organization or another. It turns out the second opportunity is a much better fit for me in terms on the work, hours, growth plan, workplace atmosphere—all that.  Granted, I have not secured the job yet, but if I was too into the first job, I wouldn't have even noticed the second.

Funny how I find myself in that position in my life often...well, not as often as before---I've grown some--but it happens...

I enjoy being pursued. So sadly, I entertain individuals I shouldn't because they are showing me all kinds of attention. This in turn causes me to hyper focus on this 'relationship' that seems oh, so bomb when in reality it's lacking major components to keep me satisfied and happy.  That's what happens when you jump at what jumps at you.

I am becoming more refined, though....waiting for the right opportunity to come to me before just taking whatever.  Granted, my previous posts may imply I am just talking out the side of my neck because I deal with some jokers, but I can look through all of my posts and not find a single spot when I have said I am trying to really be with any of them.  They have their own space--I know what to do with them! LOL.

Back to the point:  I think it's important to have standards and be selective about who and what you decide to link up with. I don't care if misery loves company.  I checked my calendar and I'm not free for that mess!  I have decided I want to be happy in all areas of my life and if that means seeking out the best job opportunities or waiting for MY Adam to find his rib in me, I will do that so I don't have to settle.  I refuse to look back at my life and say of all I accomplished I could have done so much more if I hadn't stopped one step short of the best experience ever.

That's all I really wanted to say today.  Take some time to figure out what you really want and make decisions to get you closer to those goals and dreams.  You'll love yourself so much more for doing so. Of this, I am certain...

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